Transgender Employment, Role Models and Karma

I was once passed over for a promotion at a former job... and the girl that they hired was from outside the company and was far less qualified for the position than I was. The reason was made clear early on... Whenever she walked down the hallway, all the guys would become tongue tied, then stop and stare.

My infatuation with her was quite different. I was infatuated by the fact that her features were so similar to mine. Every one of my overly-male features that I have and constantly dwelled upon (my hands, my nose, my jaw-line, my chin, etc), she had as well... yet they thought that she was beautiful. Although I was bummed about not getting the promotion, I was actually glad to work with her, because she was a constant reminder that I could actually become a viable female.

Today I stumbled upon her modeling website. What? Modeling website? At first I was shocked because, again, she has the same features as me and I don't think I'm pretty at all... then reality set in...

Those who know me know that I am NOT overly cocky or conceited... If anything I'm overly critical of myself. That being said, I pulled up my pictures next to hers and was astounded! Even though our noses, hands, and our figures are about the same... her jawline, chin, and several other features that I was critical on, were actually more masculine than mine! And (again... not to be cocky) my lips and eyes are actually a bit nicer than hers. Although she does have less natural body hair, bigger boobs, a bigger ass and better eyebrows (all of which I'm working on)... I actually (dare I say it?)... looked prettier and more like a female than she does in her "professionally shot" photos!

It was such a confidence booster!

It would be such a massive Karma rush if I actually got a job as a model or actress at some point and become more popular than the model that was hired for my position because of the way she looks!

Anyone looking for a transgender model or comedic actress?

Seriously though, after having my 15 minutes of fame as a rock-chick... I've been hoping to get back into the spotlight. I'm actually toying with the idea of approaching "The Walking Dead" to see if they want to add a transgender to the cast. Considering my bizarre yet relate-able personality... and the aspect that I'm trained in the martial arts... I think it would work out great for both them and myself.