Transgender Issues, Pain and Acceptance

I don't cry often... but today I did.

I cried a lot today... and truth be known, I've cried a lot lately.

I'm strong by nature, but considering everything that I've dealt with over the past year... which is far more that I spoke about on my blog or with anyone in my current circle...

I know that everyone has hard times in life... I too deal with those issues every day. But considering how hard the last year has been and then throwing in the aspect of loosing as much as I did from transgender prejudice and the aspect that I have NO ONE in my immediate circle to talk to about those issues... and let's be real... no one in my immediate circle wants to hear about the non-transgender issues either.

I keep hoping that there must be someone out there who really cares about who I really am, what I truly feel, and be there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on... But with every passing day... that hope becomes less and less. I've always been a good person, putting others before myself and helping everyone that I could... but everyone in my life always seems to disappear whenever I'm in pain... whenever I need help... whenever I need a shoulder to cry on.

I've known that for a long time... but it still really hurts... and hurts more every day...

I cried today... and truth be known, I've cried a lot lately.

I will stick to my dream... but sometimes my reality is VERY painful... and today is one of those days.