I've been in Hell in the past few weeks since my last post... nightmares every night and my self-doubt is the worst I ever remember having. It's been all about survival vs happiness for me. On top of the other issues that you may have read about in transitioning, finding and keeping a job that pays the bills is probably the most horrific for me.Should I give up my goal of becoming female, or do I keep putting myself through this torment in hopes that I will be able to eventually find a job and location where I will be accepted for who I truly am?
I've done some heavy, painful soul-searching... reviewing my entire life... and now realize more than ever... that even if I'm paying my bills and mortgage, I'll be miserable if I don't stay true to my goals.
Today I spend the entire day practicing tips that I found on the internet about overcoming my "overly male" attributes... mainly vocals and walking/blending in as a real woman.
If I'm going to be happy again someday... I need to be me...
Dee
Staying true to your goals can be difficult but it's so very important! If you don't have goals, you have nothing. We just drift through life without goals! Best of luck!!!
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