Well I got the HRT meds on Wednesday (4 days ago)...
The last time I was on HRT, I took the pill version (Estrofem) along with a male testosterone blocker (which is suggested if you take the pills, so you don't screw up your liver). This time I opted for the gel as I don't want to reduce "my buddy's size" right now and I can control the dosages (which the patch doesn't allow for).
Although it's only been a few days, I'm feeling much calmer then before... and am getting back to the IDGAF attitude that I had the last time that I was on HRT... and surprisingly, I can see a bit clearer??? (My eyesight, even with glasses, has been off recently... but after going back on HRT, it's back to what it was before... weird right?). The negative is I've had less energy and am a dizzy... but hopefully that will wear off with time.
Gel vs Pills (so far): Soon after taking the pill form, I felt SO GIRLIE... my skin also became very sensitive (especially my nipples). With the gel so far, I'm actually feeling less feminine than before I started it. Again, hopefully that will change, but if not, I'll switch over to the patch or possible injections (as much as I hate needles). I'll update the blog once I notice any other changes/differences. It may just be that the recommended dosage for the gel is less than for the pills...
Reality and Regret: I started this blog in 2012, soon after I started HRT, to chronicle my journey for those who were considering following the same path. As I was concerned about how quickly my breast were growing and what people might say or think, I slowed the dosages down dramatically after about 10 months and stopped it all together after about a year and a half. Looking back in 2018, I wasted 5 years of my life by worrying about what others may think.
In reality, I should have let the T&A grow out... I would have been much happier with myself, much further along, and, if anyone commented about it, it would have been a good "ice-breaker" for saying, "well I'm actually transgender".
Hopefully, I won't make the same mistake again. Life's too short and I'm tired of waiting to become the woman that I've always wanted to be.
Whatever your goals and dreams are... stay true to them... and yourself...
Be you. Be happy.
Dee
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