Plus 1 - Transgender Goals

I recently decided that I'm going to take 1 new and brave action each day -- every day -- toward my goal. I list each one with a "+1" in my daily calendar (to make sure I stay with the program).

The rules: It must be something brave... something that I was afraid to do... and something that I've never done before.

The results: I've become so much braver... much more confident in being myself... and finally don't care (for the most part) about homo-phoebes.

The pictures to the right are from last night. It was really a Plus 6!

I always loved this jacket, but wearing a shiny pink jacket outside is a bit too fem... same with the tight, shiny leggings and sweater boots.

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this outfit! I dreamed for years of wearing this outfit outside the house. I even drew several pictures of me in this outfit -- just chillin' in my yard -- to inspire me to make it a reality... but I was never brave enough to wear it outside.

Last night I wore all 3 outside (+3)... in full view of my homophobic neighbors (+4)... in the early evening (+5) (I'm assuming the homo-phoebes were still awake).

Did they notice? I don't care (+6). I felt SO RELAXED and just sat in my yard, enjoying the crisp Fall evening. MAJOR victory to my goals and my self-esteem!

Does the "Plus 1" work? It's working unbelievably well for me.

Be brave. Be you.

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Something Special - Transgender Issues and Acceptance

Nothing special about the look… I’m just wearing an old, unflattering outfit (bodysuit, tights, a plain skirt and an old fleece jacket) with no makeup.

What is special is the way I felt…

After a very long, hard day, I decided to slip into something a bit more feminine, go outside and TRY to unwind.

As I sat outside in the crisp fall air, for the first time in a long time, I felt so relaxed and so at peace. I know I’m not the prettiest girl… but in that moment… I felt like I was. Despite the hardships of the past and those that lie ahead… I was so glad to be me and THAT was something special. 

Side note: The clarity also allowed me to look back on recent hardships and look forward on upcoming challenges.  I'm realizing once again that hard challenges are made even harder when I force myself to not be myself. When I find the need to play the male role around co-workers, family and friends, I easily become frustrated and make bad decisions. This is starting to create new problems for me as well.

I need to expedite my plans for dropping all of the unwanted, falsely boyish things from my life... and get rid of the situations and people in my life that I feel are forcing me to comply with their ideals.