I have lightened my hair and gone out in public (very fem with full makeup) almost every evening (much earlier than before). I was even brave enough to go out in full a-la-fem during the afternoon!
Granted it's only around my yard and neighborhood, but considering how homophobic my neighbors are... these are huge steps for me and are greatly aiding in building up my self-confidence.
My current goal is to be so self-confident, that I'll be able to go out full a-la-fem to a very public place -- a club, shopping, whatever -- before the end of the winter... without being paranoid! I'm almost there! The next goal (after that ) is to become confident enough... that I won't ever feel paranoid about being the real me in public again. Wearing whatever... whenever... and where-ever... I want!
Sure I'll still get grief... but if I once I get to that point, the opinions of the homo-phoebes will be totally laughed off! I'm almost there with that too... considering that I no longer care about how much I've lost to become who I want to be -- who I need to be -- and knowing that what matters to me is remaining proud of who I am and following my goals.
Be You...
Be Brave...
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