Transgender Transitions

So... Someone was curious how the physical progress was going....

Hormones:
Still going VERY slowly on the hormones (See the 5/12/13 post). It wasn't just the boob thing... I kind of like my... you know... so I decided that, for now, I really want to keep it. That being said, it was very scary to see it get smaller... so I still take "maintenance" doses to keep the hormones in check, but have reverted to other methods for my feminization.

Laser Hair Removal:
The laser hair removal has been going on for over a year, which is longer that I thought it would be, but overall, I'm glad I'm doing it. It's going great in some places, and not so great in others... which means that I've gone all summer without wearing shorts around friends and family (still "patchy" in some places).

Body Sculpting:
I've been on a new regiment of non hormonal body sculpting which has been working VERY well for me (if you want to know the particulars, please feel free to email me). I never wanted to look like Dolly Parton... I prefer to look like a healthy, athletic woman. I've re-sculpted my bum, legs and boobs and now am beginning to LOVE what I see in the mirror (not being cocky, just happy of the woman looking back at me). With a bit more work, I'll be at my goal. The pic to the right is NOT a padded bra... That's where they're at.

The bra thing is actually funny... There was a time when the first thing I did after getting home was to put on a bra and a pair of heels... but now that I have boobs, I prefer to go bra-less. I now LOVE how camisoles look and feel on me WITHOUT the bra.

Still paranoid about the over-tweezing thing though (which I just did AGAIN)... so hopefully I can find a compromise look for now that will keep me happy when I look in the mirror, but won't get me more grief at work..

I wish I could just go full out and be accepted... but that's just a fantasy... so I'll keep with the slow conversion until I meet my goals.

Stay strong and follow your goals...
Luv Dee

Transgender Roads

The past week has graced me with amazing piece-of-mind. I now refuse to stress out about what other people do... and don't do... I now refuse to stress out about what I can't accomplish... I'm just taking life on step at a time and focusing on MY happiness for once.

These are HUGE steps for me, because I've always been "Type A"... but by refusing stress and embracing my new philosophy, I'm finally empowered to be the REAL me.

A nice side effect happened a few nights ago. I decided to celebrate the coming fall by dressing in something that I NEVER would have worn outside a month ago (the left picture).

Yes the homophobic neighbor was creeping again, but I didn't let it phase me. I just sat looking at the stars enjoying my wine.
 
By 4 AM, I was feeling so empowered and so much braver that I traded the long skirt for a leather mini (the right picture) and went for a walk around the neighborhood... just because I wanted to.

In the days since, I've been going out in VERY feminine fashions... both day and night... without too much thought of what others may say.

Transgender Reflections, Changes and Goals

Labor Day is the time to reflect on the passing summer and prep for the fall.

It’s been a long hard summer for me. I stepped up once again to do the right thing… and unfortunately, although I was able to help out a lot of other people and make a lot of positive changes, it inevitably cost me VERY dearly.

The one good thing that came from my personal losses is that I am now forced to go down a different life path. Everything in life happens for a reason and I think I actually needed to go through all of this to realize what's truly important in my life.

What will happen… I do not know… but I think I need to finally start focusing on me and what makes me truly happy.

As for now, I'm dressed up in my favorite summer top and miniskirt and going into my yard to enjoy this beautiful summer night... ignoring what the homophobic neighbors will say... 

I'm doing this for me.

Side note (2 hours later): I'm out in my yard trying to relax and my homophobic neighbor is trying to take pictures of me in my own yard??? (And no... I did not talk to her or ask her to do that... she's just taking them to show her friends the freak next door (me)... and it's SO obvious, because the flash from the camera
is lighting up the part of my back yard where I'm sitting... Aren't there laws against that?) WTF???

I'm not upset... I actually feel bad for her... That her life is so boring... that she would get her kicks out of doing that. It only makes me more determined to find a new transgender friendly abode and a new transgender friendly job... ASAP!