Shit! Now what do I do? I guess I have to wear jeans... but if I have to wear jeans... I'm going to wear the most comfortable, feminine ones I have... along with a cute and very comfy Danskin tank top and women's sandals! I attempted this a while ago at a family barbeque and it turned out to be a day of uncomfortable looks and judgmental snickering.
I prepare myself for the worse case scenario and the best. If they say anything about me looking overly feminine, I'll thank them and and explain about my transition. If I can't be me in front of my friends, then they're not worth hanging out with anymore.
The best case scenario? I pack up a few really girlie outfits. Although I always been myself around this group of friends, I've never had the courage to wear a cute dress, mini-skirt, bathing suit and/or high heels while we hung out. I've been fantasizing about this for years! Will I finally find the courage to do it?
As I drive there, I feel so free. It's been a while since I allowed myself to wear anything so obviously girlie in public.
When I arrive, I don't get one stare or negative comment from anyone at the barbeque. I guess that's the difference between my family and my friends. My true friends accept me for who I truly am... and my family... not so much.
I look as feminine as the rest of the women, so as much as I want to slip into a dress, I would be over-dressed (or under-dressed?) if I do change into a dress. Oh well...
I'm feeling brave again... or maybe I just don't care about what shallow homophobes think anymore... but either way, I actually ventured into the back yard today, which is partially visible to my neighbors, in a cute bikini to work on my tan lines!
Dee
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