The Bright Side of Darkness

I used to dread this time of the year… The days are dreary, the weather is WAY too cold, and it’s dark before I get out of work… but now I now actually look forward to late autumn.

When I got home from work tonight, I changed into a very cute and very feminine outfit (which also included high heeled boots). Soon after, I took my dog out for a long walk. As we walked along the dark, empty streets, I felt so relaxed… and so free… Not once thinking, “What will the neighbors say”? I was just a very self-confident lady walking her dog.

Although I felt very pretty in the outfit, that’s not what made me feel so happy and free. I’ve been wearing female clothing 24/7 for years now, but I usually don’t wear anything in public that’s OVERLY feminine. Tonight though, instead of changing back into less feminine clothing, I kept the cute outfit on and allowed myself to be myself… without ANY paranoia or worries. I guess the fact that it was a very dark night had a lot to do with that.

I’m taking steps to get to the point where I can go out any time of the year without feeling self-conscious… but until then, I’ll gladly welcome how light-hearted the New England darkness can make me feel.