Dee Burke - Spring Update

Although many things in my personal life have gotten more difficult and gloomy since the job loss, there are a few positive notes:

1.     Since I'm already stressed and not able to do much that's productive, I decided to quit smoking. Why quit smoking when my life is at a low point? I NEED to do something positive... and considering I'm already in so much pain... why not add a little more if it means that at least something positive will come out of this horrific time in my life?
2.     I'm becoming so much more confident in displaying my "girlie mode" in public. I've been taking daily walks with my dog and practicing my more feminine walk in public... and at this point, I actually feel very comfortable with my feminine mannerisms... so much so that it feels natural now... even around people I know... which leads me to point number 3...
3.     I'm VERY close to coming out in a major way to everyone I know. I'm thinking that I may just do a new Facebook account under my new "girlie name" and posting something on the current account saying who I really am and then saying "If you still want to be my friend then you are welcome to friend me at the new account". I know it may sound extreme, but if I were to just disappear (like I originally planed on doing), I know the rumors would be worse than the truth... so I'd rather do it under my conditions... and in my own words.

Something that surprises me though is... now that I actually can wear makeup every day and take photos more often... I wear makeup and take take photos much less often that before. I guess it has to do with the lack of motivation to do much of anything at this point... because I definitely feel much more feminine than I ever have before... and that's the best positive note of all!

Here is one series that I did mange to take:

I have been motivated in some areas however, including my laser treatments... which after 3 years FINALLY seem to be getting me closer to being hair-free.

Oh... Final Side Note: I've also let go of my fear of wearing what I considered being things that are "overly girlie" in public. Although I still don't wear dresses or spike heels around neighbors, friends and/or family, I have been going out wearing VERY feminine blouses/tops, jeans, shoes/boots... etc...

Basically, if need to leave the house to walk the dog or go to the store now, I just go out in whatever I have on at the time (unless it's a dress). I've stopped worrying about -- or caring about -- what others may say or think. Surprisingly, I haven't gotten one negative comment or glare. I guess it's due to my gradual transformation into androgyny, along with my new found self-confidence in my femininity and the fact that I really don't care anymore. It's so freeing and so liberating to be who I truly am.

Be you... Happiness will eventually come...
Dee